swatch_me

swatch_me @ 2009-11-13T01:09:00

2009-11-13T07:09:35Z

Shuffle Survey
you know the drill, shuffle your itunes or mp3 player & the songs will be the answers to the questions. try not to cheat, okay? oh, & the questions are very random. it doesn't matter if your answer is weird. that's the fun in it. enjoy!

1) How is your boyfriend/girlfriend doing?
song: the beautiful letdown-switchfoot
comment: hmm...no?

2) Do you have anything to pay off?
song: stupid boy-keith urban
comment: stupid boy....nope wrong again.

3) What are you wearing right now?
song: my flow so tight-smoke jumpets
comment: my clothes so loose, so comfy

4) Do you know anyone that wants you dead?
song: LDN-Lily Allen
comment: I love this song. I don't want to change the song.

5) Do you believe that regrets are lessons learned?
song: one time-justin bieber
comment: i'm so embarassed.
6) What are you listening to?
song: made for each other-jack's mannequin
comment: finally, a question that has something to do with the answer.

7) Where did you first hear this song?
song: it's not a fashion statement, it's a death wish
comment: i have never even listened to this song

8) Are you the one that normally makes the first move?
song: let love in-goo goo dolls
comment: that means, yes
9) Would you sacrifice yourself for a friend?
song: i got nerve-hannah montanacomment: i hate myself.

10) Whats really annoying you right now?
song: when you look me in the eyes-jonas brothers
comment: i really really hate myself.

11) State a fact about yourself.

song: 99 Luftballoons-Nena
comment: awesome.

12) What did you do today?
song: this ain't a scene, it's an arms race (remix)-fall out boy ft. kanye west
comment: i never understand anything they say in their songs

13) Name your bestfriends.

song: catch my disease-ben lee
comment: guess i have no friends

14) What's a saying you scream when something bad happens?
song: girl america-mat kearney
comment: "girl america, damnit!"

15)Are you always in a hurry?
song: never again-kelly clarkson
comment: no?

16)Do you drink/smoke?
song: with you-chris browncomment: with chris brown, i do.

17)Whats one horrible thing you do?
song: light on-david cook
comment: HAHA this one actually works, i would get yelled at for accidentally leaving lights on all the time at school

19)What do people label you as?
song: a plain morning-dashboard confessional
comment: i am pretty plain.

20) Do people see you as a preppy person?
song: so glad-ne-yo ft. chris browncomment: no.

21) What do you hate most about the opposite sex?
song: unwell-matchbox 20comment: i'm not craaaazy

22)Whats your shoe size?
song: before the worst-the script
comment: these questions are so dumb

23)Do you currently work?
song: stop and state-onerepubliccomment: people do stop and stare a lot at Casey's

26)What do you miss the most?
song: this is real, this is me-demi lovato
comment: i need to revaluate my musical choices.

29) Are you over your texts on your cellphone?
song: groove is in the heart-deelite
comment: no i am not, i am so not over them

30) Who do you know you can depend on?
song: tracing-john mayer
comment: i love this song

33) Whens your birthday?
song: did you get my message?-jason mraz
comment: 2/9

34) Have any plans?
song: untouched-the veronicas
comment: this song reminds me of Liz

35) Rate yourself from 1-10
song: the game is over-nsync
comment:and i hope this survery as well

36)Why do people like you?
song: only heart-john mayer
comment: because i have one heart

38)Do you take any prescribed medication?
song: overdue-the get up kidscomment: a lot unfortunately.

39)When you turn twenty-one you are going to do:
song: lemme get that-rihanna
comment: lemme get that beer

40)What are you going to do to prepare yourself for your future career?
song: whatever it takes-lifehouse
comment: I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES.

there goes ten minutes of my life i will never get back.

swatch_me @ 2009-08-25T00:14:00

2009-08-25T05:23:58Z

I always told myself that I would never be one of those girls who made their boyfriend their entire life and dropped everything else that used to matter to them. I cannot help but feel that I am headed down that horrible road. Long distance relationships fucking suck...absolutely terrible. I am so homesick. So unbelievably homesick. I miss home. I miss Cade. I miss Cade so much. I was with him pretty much all the fucking time all summer, and now I am here in fucking Bloomington-Normal, living in house with four other girls (three of which I really bump heads with) and I am just so lonely. Cade is in the city, working at a great internship, living with two of his best friends, just having a great time.

I feel like we are seeing this long distance thing totally and completely differently. I am just laying in bed SOBBING because I am a pathetic piece of shit. The plan is to go home this weekend and see him, but now his plans have changed and he's all busy but of course he's still like "come come come" but what if you're not even around? I want to see you. I am so fucking just fucked right now. Maybe it's the birth control that I have recently just started that is fucking with my head so much. I can cry at the drop of a hat. I do not want to blame my whacked out emotions on the BC, but I am going to. This whole relationship has been traveling at warp speed. BAM we're going on dates, BAM i'm sleeping over there BAM we're exclusive, BAM we're in love...all in a matter of three months? I just can't wrap my head around it. I am the one who told him that the long distance would not be a problem and we could do it. He was the skeptic. I was the optimist. Those roles have 100% been reversed. I don't want to be mad that he is happy where he is and I'm not. I don't want to resent him for that.

I just feel like I care for him way more than he cares for me. He has the upper hand and I feel so helpless sometimes. I completely fell off the face of the earth this summer and pretty much removed myself from my circle of friends. Bre and Courtney just recently started actually returning my phonecalls. My two best friends would not acknowledge my existence. I just wanted to spend all my time with Cade because I knew time was running out as the summer continued. I don't know. Everytime I see a couple on the Quad I want to kill them. I hate Rose because he boyfriend goes here and she gets to see him everyday, all day. It's just not fair. I am going to make this work because Cade is so worth it.

Wow I am sorry, this is so annoying. h8 myself

swatch_me @ 2009-05-04T02:06:00

2009-05-04T07:06:50Z

So I went to that party
everyone they were kind of arty
And I was wearing this dress
'cause I wanted to impress
But I wasn't sure if I look my best
'cause I was so nervous
But I carried on regardless
strutting through each room
trying to find you

And when I saw you kissing that girl
My heart, it shattered
and my eyes, they watered
and when I tried to speak I stu-uttered

And my friends were like "Whatever,
you'll find someone better,
his eyes are way too close together
and we never even liked him from the start.
And now he's with that tart,

and I heard she'd done some really nasty stuff
down in the park with Michael.
He said she's easy
and if your guys with someone that's sleazy
then he ain't worth your time
cause you deserve a real nice guy"

So I proceeded to get drunk and to cry
I locked myself in the toilets for the entire night

I seriously feel like me and Kate Nash need to meet eachother. She lives my life...well kind of.

swatch_me @ 2008-10-02T01:29:00

2008-10-02T06:32:02Z

It's been nine months, and I feel exactly the same as I did then. I can't even breathe right now. I just need to go home this weekend. It's been way too stressful. This campus is filled with too many people and too many memories. I try to imagine my life right now if I had chosen a different path, and sometimes I wish I could turn back time and just do it all over. What would my life be like? Would I even be in school? At this point in time, I think no way. Would my parents even be speaking to me? What friends would be by my side? It's strange to think about, but it's a life I will never know. Honestly. I think this anniversary is going to haunt me forever.

swatch_me @ 2008-09-06T17:11:00

2008-09-06T22:11:41Z

Rose and Joe are ENGAGED.............................................................

swatch_me @ 2008-05-11T02:21:00

2008-05-11T07:23:27Z

It's Mother's Day.

I was on Postsecret, and all of a sudden just came to this sick sick realization in my head, and I just, I don't know. It's not a good night for me. I haven't had a break down like this in awhile, but I am just a mess.

I feel like I will never be the same ever again. What kind of person am I?

Selfish and cold.

swatch_me @ 2007-08-15T02:52:00

2007-08-15T07:53:40Z

saying goodbye was the hardest thing i have ever done in my life, with each person i hugged, every memory with them came rushing back into my head, and i just lost it.

this is absolutely surreal.

swatch_me @ 2007-03-16T22:58:00

2007-03-17T03:59:26Z

My Dad is completely drunk right now and it's so funny. He came barging into my room with green beads, yelling, "HAPPY SAINT PATTY'S DAY!!!!" and then picking me up and carrying me around the house.
Hilarious.

In other news, a certain someone is coming over soon :0)
Being in love is weird.
<3

swatch_me @ 2006-09-11T22:18:00

2006-09-12T03:21:39Z

098: any more absolute truths?
13: um
13: i love you more than you love me
098: i don't think that's possible
13: very wrong you are
098: am i?
13: yes
098: i don't think so
13: whatev
098: why would you say that?
13: cause
13: ill never forget you
13: the smiles you bring to faces
13: and the joy you bring to the day
098: you're a sweet kid
13: nah
13: just telling the truth

he really is a sweet kid.
weird-ness.

swatch_me @ 2005-05-30T19:33:00

2005-05-31T00:34:10Z

OKAY.

i'm seeing Hilary Duff this summer.
BE JEALOUS.

<3

swatch_me @ 2005-05-07T23:14:00

2005-05-08T04:15:07Z

_on_your_porch

ADD IT?!

I Am Not Writing In This Journal Anymore

2005-04-28T22:50:40Z

just saying again.............

_on_your_porch

and so it is.

2005-04-25T01:21:51Z

last one, i promise.

_on_your_porch

swatch_me @ 2005-04-17T01:48:00

2005-04-17T06:52:19Z

i love ryan adams more and more each day.

i think everyone should listen to him.
today was so productive, i feel accomplished!

tommorow=homework and cleaning my room!

yessssssssssssssss.
i live for it.

i hope everyone had a good weekend!
peace love and harmony.

<3

swatch_me @ 2004-07-04T02:22:00

2004-07-04T07:23:05Z

hi all. i'm katie.
comment, if you want to know about me. i suppose.
<3